blessed and grateful.
“I AM ENOUGH AND I AM NOT MY HISTORY. I BELIEVE THAT LOVE IS THE ONLY NUTRIENT IN THE WORLD THAT CAN BE EXPRESSED, AND I VOW TO TRY MY BEST TO PRACTICE ITS EXPRESSION IN EVERYTHING I DO AND WITH EVERYONE I KNOW. I AM NEVER WITHOUT RESOURCES. I AM A CHILD OF THE HALF LIGHT. I AM CONNECTED TO THE WHOLE. I AM A CREATIVE FORCE, I RECALL THE ORIGINAL PROGRAM THAT IS MY DESIGN IN WHICH I LIVE MY LIFE BY. I AM A MAGNET. I KNOW NOTHING, BUT I HAVE THE ABILITY TO RECOGNIZE TRUTH- THATS HOW I SEE YOU, EVEN WITH MY EYES CLOSED.” – MELODYEH$ANI (thanks Justeezy)
This Thanksgiving, I have so much to be grateful for. God is good because He gave me you — You make it possible for me to continue doing what I do, even when I feel like I can’t anymore. I am more than thankful… please know you all are my validation and for that alone, I am eternally grateful.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving, get fat, eat well, and shit very well. =)
FOHN: Fashion Oh Hell No!!!
One of my very good friends just happens to be THE MOST fashionable person i know. period. and because I’m not very nice, I’ve decided to post her expert critique on an outfit that screams HELP ME. lol. read on.
LMAO. I. DIE. i should have guest bloggers more often. =)
oh, is THAT was she’s saying?
you’re a good girl. you’ve got ur shit together, you dont have a lot of enemies. you’ve got a good job, another great internship. life is fucking grand. but you’ve got this small problem.
there’s two solutions to this problem, but the thing is, either way you go will either go against every girl code known to woman, or the trust built between good friends. its a catch 22 and you’re stuck in between a rock and hard place. what to do.. what to do.
here’s the story.
you and hot guy are really good friends. hot guy meets hot girl. they become hot boyfriend and girlfriend. hot girlfriend is crazy and controlling and psycho. (or so hot guy says). hot guy cheats with other girls, some hot. some not. hot guy cheats with you. so hot. hot-psycho-girlfriend befriends you. hot psycho girlfriend is more of just a regular girl. you kind of like hot girlfriend. hot guy cheats with more girls. you start feeling bad for hot girlfriend. you think hot girlfriend who has now become your hot girl friend doesnt deserve shitty treatment.
here’s the dilema.
do you stay out of it and dont say shit to this girl who is head over heels in love with a douchebag?
or you do the girl a favor and tell her that her man is a cheating, lying, manipulative asshole and severely damage your friendship with him?
and maybe it would be a different story if she was a bitch or actually psycho like he says she is but either way, no female deserves to be played the fool for three months let alone three years… right?
consequently, your friend told you these things in confidence. you’ve built a friendship over a handful of years and although you two have crossed a line, y’all are still good friends. and even if you did want to stay out of it, you’re already waist deep in it. you were the other woman! YOU. so now what?
yeah, he might have had a “thing” with her BEST FRIEND but it seems like she’s living life without a care in the world. but she’s also a secret coke-head who, while absolutely gorgeous, majorly sucks at life. and you don’t. why did you have to be born with a conscience? or a functioning brain?
i can’t even begin to tell you what I would do because I’ve been the girl who has minded my business and the girl who’s broke the news and STILL felt like the asshole either way.
and who says she’ll believe u anyway.. love is fucking BLIND. and ignorant. and messy as fuck. but i do believe that doing nothing is the same as doing the wrong thing. the thing is, how do you determine what the wrong move is?
what would you do?
Mav x Hellz
Hellz Bellz has been kind enough to participate in another MAV Foundation fashion show going on this Saturday, November 28 at the Moscone Auto Show in San Francisco. Come support a great cause as you get ur eye candy on!
Ladies, bring your guys to check out the cars while you get a special sneak peek at the Hellz Bellz Spring 2010 line. =) Come say hi to me! Fashion show starts at 6 pm, but Auto show is all day. My girl Steph will also be selling her vintage digs, and my girl Michelle will be slangin her one-of-a-kind earrings. HOLLA!
Lineup: 594 Clothing | Revelation by ME | Fatlace | Hellz Bellz | CA Couture| Punky Couture | Body Damage | STEPHs Closet
Performances by: Mike Dash-E | Amy Serrata | Nump |Phame
$8 for adults, children 12 and under are free with a paying adult.
ya digg.
-my favorite estelle song x anuhea = LOVE. got to see her live on my last trip there @ the pipeline and i love her cover. just love.
- my new hurr. and jess’ visit back home to SF. check the fatlace blog for more pics from the fatlace 10 year anniversary party!
- Hellz x Reebok collab.
- my cousin’s new mixtape! check out my cuz DJ IZZACE! buy it here!
LA, ur beautiful.
I just spent the entire weekend in LA, passed out on MissLawn’s aerobed, eating Korean BBQ, and shopping till I can’t no mo’.
I almost want to move. Partly because Lawn and Bam have been more than hospitable and I cannot thank them enough for the awesome time I had. And also because the people in Los Angeles are so goddamn good looking.
Like seriously… I think I could count the number of short/fat/ugly people I saw on one hand. Everyone on the street, in the club, and even waiting our tables were at least 5′7″, thin, and absolutely gorgeous! (Aja, yours is my new favorite face to look at… no homo. lol)
My girl Abi says that they only let us into Hyde on Friday night because of Affirmative Action. They needed to increase the Asian population. LMAO. and next to Lamar Odom and his table of ginormous basketball players, my girl Anna (who stands at 4′10″) looks down right ridiculous. I think she reached his kneecap… on her tippy toes.
I’ve never felt the urge to put on a dress and heels to hit the liquor store until this weekend and an outfit I would usually never wear until its dark outside, saw the light of day at breakfast over chicken and waffles.
It was amazinggggggggggg. LA, thank you for emptying my pockets, filling my belly, forcing my vanity, and providing an endless amount of eyecandy. guess they dont call it the City of Angels for nothin.
Brit, I want to see those pictures! aaand the gals and I during our Hellz headquarters takeover.
outfit deets: outfit 1) striped top, can’t remember. F21 blk leggings, Crooks & Castles cardigan / outfit 2) blue F21 silky romper, F21 sheer dots tights, Dolce Vita studded booties / outfit 3) Silence & Noise bold shoulder dress, American apparel Leggigns, Dolce Vita studded booties, LAMB convertible clutch / outfit 4) Hellz Bellz santo top, h&m moto jacket, cheap monday lace denim, WTFangs necklace, JC 99 zip wedge (thanks jess!)
and i quote
Listen to your heart.
“because you will never again be able to keep it quiet. even if you pretend not to have heard what it tells you, it will always be there inside you, repeating to you what you’re thinking about life and about the world.” – The Alchemist
curse of the ex.
i was asked this morning to think about the last time i really had my heart broken by a man. and fortunately enough for me, it took a lot of thinking cuz its been a while. but once i started retracing my relationships, prior to my husband, i noticed an unsettling trend.
Cuz my ex cheated on me with his ex. And so did my ex before him, aaaaaand my ex before him. I had been cursed with the Ex-factor.
i used to be the BIGGEST ex-girlfriend hater. the ex-girlfriend, whoever she was.. no matter how much prettier (she wasn’t), or smarter (just try), or better (psh! never!) she was than me… i drank my haterade with pride.
Why? for the simple fact that she was the ex-girlfriend. thats really all i needed to know.
so I would go and snoop thru his phone and check if her number was there, and when Friendster / Myspace came into my life, it became so much easier to be the crazed girlfriend stalker. my boyfriend always asked me, “why girls always hate each other?” coming from an all girls school, i never needed a valid reason to hate a girl, but I didnt wanna sound stupid so I just smiled and shrugged.
thinking back now, i think my fear was that he never really got over his ex. which would then lead to him leaving me or cheating on me like my former flames did. i had begun to let my ex boyfriend’s actions dictate my thoughts on what my current boyfriend might do.
do i sound crazy yet? i’m sure i do, but tell me u didnt ever think the same?
the ironic thing is that in my cases, the ex-girlfriend always won him back. i had played the fool too many times and these experience only further validated my crazy. all my crazy thoughts and assumptions about what could happen had come to fruition and just as fast as i had replaced her in his bed, she returned the favor. fml. it was a vicious, vicious cyle.
the one thing that made me REALLY get over it, was the fact that i had already befriended my husband’s exes. when we got together, his exes weren’t just random strange girls. they were girls from my high school, my friend’s cousins, shit even girls i hang out with. they were girls with names, and faces, and personalities and I was not gonna de-friend these amazing women because of petty shit like 3 dates in the 11th grade. cuz above all else, THAT sounded crazy. so what did i do? in a nutshell, i sucked it up and got over it.
u see, i had to finally get over his ex to fully understand that he already had.
they’re not called “exes” for nothing, right?
bag lady
last night Abi asked me to bare my soul (a.k.a. the contents of my purse) for her. And although I did a similar post last year, it was fun and i’m doing it again. so Hayati, here’s the scoop hula hoop. (u like that one, huh)
bag – purchased from metropark. tons of zippers, and black leather – just like the rest of my fall/winter wardrobe.
wallet – same wallet i been rockin for the LONGEST TIME, EVER. Love, Angel, Music, Baby! first thing i see when i open it is my card for unlimited eyebrow threading for the next three months. if you dont know, educate urself! that shit is CLEAN.
“The Lucky One”, by Nicholas Sparks - bought this book in Hawaii a couple months back and didnt even open it when I was there. I was having TOO MUCH FUN with the girlies. so, I thought I’d bring it with me to LA this weekend just in case I had any downtime. (doubt that) I really want to read the new Dan Brown book, but my homie let someone else borrow it, even tho I was next in ine (yes Ariel, I’m talking to YOU. not friends until Justin returns it. and Justin – unlike, unlike, UNLIKE)
Hello Kitty Bank of America debit card – currently stuck in my book as a bookmark because I was reading, and contemplating buying something on line at the same time. see, i can multitask!
Keys- for the Tahoe, my hizzouse, my mom’s house, my in-law’s house, and my snowboard rack. all on the same Coach Butterfly keychain I’ve had since 2004.
Cannon SD1100 - cuz i’m still a camera whore. and I have 5468435468743574 pictures to prove it.
Monoi Oil – straight from Tahiti thanks to my Bakeries. It’s currently replaced my hand lotion and hair serum. right now tho, its frozen cuz its cold, but i sit on it for a little bit to melt the oil again. lol. and when under the sun, slather this on ur skin for that lechon/authentic polynesian look. 3 shades darker guaranteed!
shades – i reflect the light of my own sun. (right, soulmate?)
cigarette case – cuz the mirrored star that holds my capri’s is sexier than the white cardboard box it usually comes in. plus, i can touch up my lipstick on that shit.
which brings me to my lip products – lipliner in beet, lipstick in rebel, burt’s beezwax, and concealer. cuz i wore lipstick the other day and still havent taken em out.
mini bottled water – cuz my throat be parched like a mofo.
iphone w/ an aaron kraten/hellz cover. my phone is my life and its lasted me almost 2 years with just a few scratches. amazing now how my son knows how to work my phone as well as I do. the smartest kid!
speaking of Adonis, I have his Jordans in my bag. he randomly likes to take his shoes off, and then put them back on again. i dont know why but whenever he sees these he screams “SHOES! SHOES!” and gets really excited. yep, thats my son alright.
and a couple things that were JUST in my bag but didnt make the pic — a tampon (cuz i’m on my rag) and a granola bar (but i just ate it cuz i’m fat).
th-th-th-th-th-th-th-tha-tha-th-THATS ALL FOLKS! whats in ur bag?!
Be.Bella
I’d like to introduce to you a good friend of mine and my favorite baby mama. She also happens to be one of the most talented makeup artists and hair stylists I know.
i was in her company last week as she prepped my hair for my big perm, and we started talking about her, her drive, and her passion.
I first met Charrie a few years back and the very first thing I noticed about her was her makeup. It was absolutely flawless! Not surprising tho, because she learned to apply makeup on herself at the very young age of 5. Her love of makeup began here, backstage at competitions, keeping herself busy while mom did costume changes.
Through the years, she honed in on her skill and continued to practice the art of makeup application. After joining the MAC team in 2004 she learned new techniques through extensive training and enhanced her creativity. She became APPLICATION certified while picking up freelance work on the side, such as photo shoots and weddings and other special events. She is the driving talent force behind John Robert Powers Model and Talent Agency, MILO Model and Talent agency, Softsheen Carson Tour, Maybelline Cosmetics, Babesblvd.com, Tsing Tao Expo, Tobi.com, and was published in Hairtrendz magazine. We’ve also worked together for the MAV Foundation fashion shows (next one coming up 11/28). She’s not only amazing as an artist, but an amazing friend as well.
oh, and because we were pregnant together, our children are now arranged to be married. lol. can i just say, she was the most beautiful pregnant woman I’ve ever seen in my life. as in EVER. i mean, there i go lookin like a beached whale, and she’s like… glowing.
Check out the Be.Bella YouTube channel as she shares with you her passion. Be.Bella is painting faces. molding hair. changing lives.
Raaachem
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