you dont realize you’re breathing stale air until you open the window and let the fresh breeze in..
sometimes life is like that. you go through your routine.. you hustle, you grind. you walk down the street with swag so serious that you SWEAR no one can fade you or your “i’m so the shit” mentality. and then something new happens, and your window opens.
assimilation has turned me into a fucking robot. finish school, get a good job, do whatever it is that i ‘m supposed to be doing, and do that shit well… culture has driven my thoughts and actions..and i realize that i have been asleep. i’ve been unconscious. as of late, i have been making a conscious effort for revival. little by little i am waking up, and im starting to wonder how i could have been that way for so long.
ok so it took a whole week of thinking that i suck at life.. one full week of wah-ing… but shit’s coming full circle. new things, new people, new interests… revived interest in old friends, old hobbies and being genuine in trying to put the FUN back into my life has given me the chance to see the world in a new light– to see ME in a new light..
my inability to articulate or manifest a strong sense of identity left me lost. so today is day 1 of unlearning the culture and learning ME.
i will be my own breath of fresh air.