feeling a little introspective today and i’d like to pose a question.
do u think utopia is attainable?
like.. do u think its a real place where happiness exudes from your pores and you are left wanting nothing? and i dont mean complacency, but true contentment… where your positive energy elevates you to a place where the air is thin and the lack of oxygen gets you high on life….
my objective in life is to grasp the concept of two things. infinity and utopia. ultimately, to feel utopic till infinity.
how do i get there and where do i start is a question that i ask myself on the daily. is what i’m doing right now conducive to my goal? if it aint, it needs to go. thats one of the reasons why im trying to gave up cigarettes, cuz how the hellz am i supposed to enjoy infinity if i’m busy smoking cancer sticks right? hmm. i think i’m pretty badass in my aspirations to have it all, but does having it all necessarily mean finally being happy??
i’m a woman. and as women, are we ever satisfied? in my experience, NO. i guess my question is, when do i know when to stop pushing myself for a brighter tomorrow and start enjoying the sunshine today? when will today be my utopia?
sometimes i feel the need to unlearn the lies of the culture that surrounds me before its possible to learn the truth about my happiness in life… gah! i’m babbling. but i wanna say one last thing —
that pot of gold is within our reach, i know you can feel it.
p.s. is life sans cigarettes making me looney or WHAT?!