maybe its just my jaded view of the world, but i’m the kind of person to expect the best, and hope for the best when it comes to circumstance. i dont get butthurt too easily so when the best doesnt happen, i brush that shit off and move on. but, when it comes to people and the roles they play in ur life.. i think.. that i’ve become the complete opposite.
i kind of go into new friendships expecting that they SUCK (i dunno i think i also half expect them to be hunch back and buck tooth too), kind of because i love that feeling of being pleasantly surprised when they are fuckin AWESOME. maybe its cuz i’ve come accross too many mediocre people whom i thought would be nothing short of amazing, that i automatically assume u can’t be as great as u portray urself to be.
i’ve been disappointed too many times that i can confidently throw away my naivety, but i suppose that shouldnt mean that everyone deserves the same fate in my eyes now, does it?
as of late, a few people have proven their absolute amazingness and i am again in awe cuz i can actually say “hey, i see the god in u”.. who besides common says that shit? i guess i do. hahaha.
and this post really serves no purpose than to help me get back into writing after a 2 week hiatus cuz the fuckin job is killin me softly and slowly… whatever. here we go.