Beneath the make-up & behind the smile
I’m just a girl who wishes for the world..
– Marilyn Monroe
“fuck my life. and the one before it. and my afterlife” – hayati
this blog is not meant to inspire, has no comedic value, isnt lovey dovey, wont make u love life more, or anything of the sort. if ur looking for any of that, do not pass go. do not collect $200. read a previous post. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
with that outta the way. can i just reiterate… FUCK MY LIFE.
livin my life like its golden? u know whats wrong with gold? it melts.
shit happens. i become irrational, emotional, aggravated, annoyed and tell people to save their money so they can bail me outta jail as soon as i kill a muthafucka. i have bad days, weeks, months. i have moments where i cannot bare to get out of bed and face another human being. but i do it anyways. and not because its the right thing to do, but because if i dont i wont ever be able to go back to being “normal” — whatever that is.
so i make the best of what i got, livin my life like its golden even if its really just gold plated. laughing it off, drinking it down, shrugging it away cuz thats really all i can do to keep myself in one piece.
cuz i feel like im about to crack.
Sometimes you have to crack in order to hold it together.
“and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together” – Marilyn Monroe