“i am not enough, and i am too much at the same time”

people are going to tell you that you can’t do it.  that you will never amount to anything you dream of.  they will also say that you are too needy or too proud.  too pretty, or not pretty enough.  people will tell you these things to diminish your determination because they want to see you fall.  because misery loves company.  because not everyone is good-hearted and thats just the way it goes.

so you set forth to prove them wrong.   you are on a mission to turn your aspiration into your reality.  but then…. 

in some instances, you catch urself being ur own worst enemy.  the voice that’s telling u that it can’t happen is ur own.   that nagging sense of “i’m such a failure” is coming from within you, fighting with the part of ur heart that KNOWS you deserve better.. or at least wants to believe so.   and thats ok.

i’m going to get ahead of myself.  i’m going to stumble.  i’m going to talk too much, and do too little.  i’m going to laugh too hard and not sleep enough.  i’m going to think its all shit and im a failure the day before it all works out and i’m on top of the world.   and i’m going to need you to remind me when i forget who i am or where i’m going. 

i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again.   we are both flawed AND fabulous, at the same time.

and that struggle that you think only belongs to you, belongs to me too.  no matter how much you wanna just throw up the middle finger and give the world a big FUCK YOU, truth is, you need people.    you just need to find the people who won’t turn your flaws or fuck-ups into their successes.   

i am flawed.  tell me something i don’t know.   i am fabulous.  or at least i will be.  support me till i get there.