My life is changing before my eyes, it’s kind of ridiculous. As I’m dealing with Saturn’s Return (can I just say, FUCK this hippie astrology shit) I’m learning more and more about myself and realizing… I never really knew myself at all.
Which is fine. I’ve been told that my 20’s are for discovering who I am and who I’m not. It’s for finding out what I like and what I won’t compromise for. It’s for mistakes. But am I the only one who seems to be having the MOST issues with this discovery process?
Either way, I vow to do the following things until I find myself or I turn 30. Whichever comes first.
Surprise, surprise. Food makes me happy and real talk, is the gateway between me and my life. If I want to change shit up, I’ll go somewhere new or try a new dish. I have YET to find a place that didn’t disappoint my pallette. I’m trying to eat my way through San Francisco… holla!
Pray: I’m a horrible practicing Catholic. But I talk to God everyday. When I get up in the morning, I thank Him. When I’m looking at my Son, I’m blessed. When I’m practicing yoga, I reflect. God talks to me all the time, I just have to stop and listen. Prayer is what you make it, I believe that.
Love myself again: Not that I don’t already, I’m just….. I don’t know. Lost. I’ll get there, in due time. I loved who I was, I love who I am, and I love who I am becoming. I think I just need to stop pushing my needs to the backburner. I’m ride or die, I need to show ME that.
Like I said, I’ll get there. Till then, I’ll be hanging on to the last of my 20’s with a kung fu death grip. CARPE THE MUTHAFUCKIN’ DIEM.