Best I Ever Had

“Baby you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it.
You be up on everything, other hoes ain’t never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it.”

Once upon a time, a man I loved whispered in my ear..  “Baby, you the fuckin’ best.  The best I ever had.”     I walked around with my chin up, head gassed, and my chest puffed because the efforts I made for my love were acknowledged and appreciated.  

I did my duty, I paid my dues.   I was sometimes a complete bitch, sometimes needed to do me, but always a good woman.   But, alas, this is not a love story… this is simply a story about love.  Because I held on to that one time, when he said that one thing, about me being the best….  and I believed him.   And I was confident that he would treat me accordingly, until time after time he proved me wrong.

Until I could no longer take it.  So, the best he ever had walked away.   And instead of making the effort to chase me, he let me leave.  Because even though he said I was the best that one time, his ego told himself he was the best all the time

Fast forward to a place where I find happy.   Where is he? Somewhere out there tryna see if another girl’s best compares with mine?  Tryna figure it out?  Maybe.  But he’s trippin — because I’m, simply, not trippin’.  

Yes, I gave him the best of me.  But I refuse to let him get the best of me. Because I’m tryna become the BEST of ME.

Y’all should try it sometime.

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6 comments

  1. RENegade · April 19, 2011

    Damn straight.

  2. Audrey · April 19, 2011

    helll yes

  3. Sheryl · April 19, 2011

    Ooohh weee!!! I defnitely can relate to this.

  4. MC · April 20, 2011

    Thank you.

    I swear, when I need to hear the truth or reconfirm what I already know, I tend to find that in your writing. I don’t really follow blogs, but I truly appreciate yours. Keep goin’ sis.

  5. sue · April 20, 2011

    BEAUTIFUL!! Although it probably doesn’t feel the same coming from a complete stranger, just wanted to let you know….you the FUCKIN’ best =)

  6. Pink Diamond · April 20, 2011

    That position alone is the “fucken bestttttt” smile sweetheart it only gets better too…..and applause to you.. I tried it and doin’ it and after 3 years from moving on…it was one of the best things i could have done for myself and my princess.. stay up mamas & god bless

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