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It’s amazing what can happen when you have an open mind and a genuine will to attract good people into your life.   Because that’s exactly what happens.  Good people walk into your life, or go speed dating with you, in my case.  I was having a conversation with my oldest friend in the world one day about love, bullshit, and all the hurt in my heart and she challenged me to keep my mind and heart open at a time I wanted to resurrect my walls.  So, that’s exactly what I did.  I made a conscious effort to keep myself open to experiencing life as if my heart and soul had a thousand do-over buttons.   And then the most amazing thing happened.  That very night, I met someone who has since changed the course of my life completely.

I met an amazing soul who has shown me what it’s like to really feel things, and through the process of leaving myself open to embrace all experiences, I’ve been LIVING.  I absolutely needed a soul like this to shake my ass awake.  Someone who allowed me to feel and pinpoint and recognize every change in my being, and every emotion in my heart. I made a connection that made me emote feelings that I’d stashed away in the depths of my being.  Someone who was able to evoke emotions out of me that I forgot I had and to really be comfortable with being vulnerable and sharing my feelings without fear of being judged.

Although I feel as if I’m candid with my experiences, I know I tend to say things very matter-of-factly.  No emotions, events happen to me and I don’t feel one way or another.  But this experience with this specific person has taught me one thing, its that nothing happens to me.

Everything happens FOR me.  

WHAT?!  The revelation has been like finding Jesus. (Pun intended)

Although my initial reaction was to start something romantically, this experience has been anything but.  It’s actually been so very anti-romatic and pro-spiritual.  It hasn’t been about sharing bodies but about sharing energy and knowledge. And I cannot be anymore grateful and appreciative. I’m somewhere in between Young, Wild, and Free and Eat, Pray, Love right now it’s kind of ridiculous, but I am more than excited to explore this within myself.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

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2 comments

  1. RanuJanu · October 27, 2011

    “Someone who was able to evoke emotions out of me that I forgot I had and to really be comfortable with being vulnerable and sharing my feelings without fear of being judged” That’s rare and beautiful! Nice piece.

  2. lifeonmyside · October 28, 2011

    love you soulmate.

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