Did you know that “You’ve got another thing coming,” is actually an incorrect term? The correct english idiom is “Is that what you think? You’ve got another think coming,” and references you (read: me) being wrong in your (my) thinking. duh.
I think too much.
I think I think to much, at least.
Most of the time I think I can do this, whatever the fuck this is. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. Right? Until I find myself on the train home one day, swallowing tears because I suddenly realize I can’t.
I miss you, when I think about you. I miss us, or what I think is a glorified version of us. I think if I tell you I miss you, something magical will happen. Then I think twice, and think it out loud to myself. I sound ridiculous. I sound like a girl. Sometimes I think to myself, “Rachel, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?” Sometimes I think I know the answer. Other times, I’ve got another think coming.
I’m always wondering what you’re thinking, and what you think of me. It’s kind of really important to me, actually. I didn’t think so until one day, when I didn’t think it mattered when it did. Thinking gets me in so much trouble.. Only because I think I know what this is, and I think I want to tell you.
Do I? Yes! NOOOOO! maybe….Let’s think about this for a second.
I think I want to tell you…. no. Nevermind. If i tell you, it’ll only complicate things more than they are. I don’t think it would matter anyway. I think it’s better this way.
So, I think I just won’t say anything at all.
I may have another think coming though. Hold that thought.