“Tell me who I have to be
To get some reciprocity.”
Lauryn had me all fucked up. I had no idea the answer to that question, wondering who I had to be to get some reciprocity. I mean, I guess that’s my fault, for assuming people just have the same heart as I do — big, and giving, and open.
I want it all so had to be it all, I thought. That’s the only way I’m going to attract who and what I want. The understanding, the dope, the educated, the money making, the talented, the creative, the driven. I had to be so good and give so much and love so hard that I became formidable.
So I did.
And I became a fucking FORCE to be reckoned with. But not everybody was ready for that, and I wasn’t ready for all of that rejection.
So then, I thought, I just had to be relentless. Keep fighting, and keep loving, and keep forgiving, and keep trying, and keep on keepin’ on. Because the kind of life I’m looking for –the one I want where you give what you get, and the people around you inspire you as much as you inspire them– is worth all of that. Mama didn’t raise no fool, and nothing worth it comes easy. Blah. Blah. Blah.
Hello life lesson number 8573628: I didn’t have to be any different.. I just had to find people that were.
I take reciprocity to a whole ‘nother level, and I will never again apologize for my superpower.